High Expectations


Great Expectations

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He had to. Everyone is looking at him to give a great oral exam. He is expecting himself to give a great exam.

He is a great speaker. And more so than anything else, he knows that all he needs is portray confidence. He may only know the half answer but he could convince the examiner that he knows the entire on the back of his hand.

His turn comes, like always he is just numb. The nervousness and anxiety of the exam vanished minutes before his turn comes. As he enters there’s no trembling of hands, no rapid thumping of heart. All that comes before and after the exam. But during exam only numbness.

But today, things didn’t go his way. He expected to walk out with a smile on his face but now all he could do was try to understand where he went wrong.

And he knows where. He expected himself to do great.  And he fell short of his expectations.

That’s me. Yesterday’s exam. It didn’t go great. I was overconfident. I took it for granted that my exam will go great.

Expectations. This is a scary topic to write about. Because most of the time I have had really bad experiences.

Let me tell you what I am expecting my day to go like:
Waking up feeling refreshed.
Getting to travel comfortably to college.
Having some congenial company in college(who don’t try to create misunderstandings between my friends). Getting all my studies and other work to get done easily without any hiccups.
Having people accepting me for who I am.

These expectations are just from the top of my head. My day is filled with more of these. And as conditions go, some expectations are weighted more than others.

I have seen my parents face when I couldn’t fulfill their expectations. I have my friends who expect me to know everything (and I am called an arrogant know it all for that), and well I don’t know everything.

And worse are my own expectations. I never do them justice. And this is why I hate expectation.

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I don’t their burden. I already put too much burden on myself. And I can’t change myself because I don’t know how to. I don’t want others to expect more from me. That is why I like laying low at times(don’t look at me, don’t expect anything from me).

I suffer because I expect too much from me. I can’t help it. I never could stop myself(any advice appreciated). And I face disappointment at the end. Followed by some curses directed at myself for the said disappointment.

I’ll be lying if I tell you I have only faced disappointment. Sometimes I do get more than I expect(NSS and my first blog‘s response).

And it isn’t just me that I expect too much. I expect too much from friends, my parents, hell I even expect my dog to become an ideal Hachiko someday. Too many disappointments from this side to.

So here I am saying that expectations for me is something I don’t know how to control. They are never joyous, never fulfilled and yet are always there at the back of my mind. I guess this is why I come off as a very competitive bastard.

What is worse. People tell me to stop expecting great things to happen. IF I KNEW HOW TO DO THAT I WOULD HAVE DONE IT DUDE.

I am trying not to expect anything from this post, really trying.

Let’s see what others have written:
http://neverstationary.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/english-favorite-subject/
http://ireland-ms.com/2014/04/21/the-big-fat-ugly-c/
http://bumblepuppies.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/expectations-insult-my-intelligence/
http://karaloveshp.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/i-can-take-so-much-til-ive-had-enough/
http://thereyoflight.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/high-expectations/
http://thewordress.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/shifting-expectations/
http://pippakinclawz.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/expectations/
Great Expectations
End Of The Boxes
http://mockingbird181984.wordpress.com/2014/04/20/a-short-story-2/
http://thatindianminimalist.wordpress.com/2014/03/04/expectations/
http://eastmeetsbreast.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/giant-meat-penis-or-why-ill-never-be-a-food-blogger/
http://gritandsatin.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/expectations/
http://thebohemianrockstarpresents.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/the-prospect-of-grad-school/
http://adventuresofaneverydaywoman.wordpress.com/2014/04/20/where-is-your-resurrection/
The Road to Hell is Paved, Really?
http://caughtbytheeyeofmankind.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/weekly-writing-challenge-great-expectations/
http://joearlam.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/how-green-is-my-valley/
http://www.browney237.com/this-week/
http://cateritforward.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/a-harsh-sentence/
http://allthingsgina.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/my-great-expectations-beautifully-flopped/
http://victimtocharm.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/expecting/
http://jsleflore.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/i-am-my-own-worst-critic/
http://acontract.me/2014/04/21/brat-no-tip-for-you/
http://mwvolare.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/mountain-biking-inspired-by-great-expectations-blogging-u/
http://followyourdesire.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expect-plunder-rise/
http://babsjeheron.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/on-the-street-where-i-live-boston-marathon2014/
http://plaridel.wordpress.com/2014/04/21/how-to-win-in-the-middle-east/
http://eclecticfemale.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/great-expectations/
http://icedcapppuccino.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/what-to-expect-when-youre-not-expecting/
http://lindasblogs.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/getting-around-the-city-an-earth-day-rant/
http://10eveningflowers.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/great-expectation-weeks-writing-challenge/
Great Expectations: 365 books a year
http://margaretrosestringer.com/2014/04/22/writing-challenge-great-expectations/
http://linkedd.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/self-expectation/
http://icezine.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/great-expectations/
http://balidaily.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/easy-expectation/
What’s up with the dead bodies?
http://thinkinglanguages.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expectations/
http://debz2653.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/weekly-writing-challenge-great-expectations-do-they-ever-live-up-to-the-hype/
http://yourwellwisherprogram.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/applied-for-ted-global-fellow-2014-with-great-expectations/
http://annajgreig.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/day-26-b-dirty-expectations/
http://finaletoanentrance.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expectations/
http://purplesus.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/when-the-lesson-didnt-go-to-plan/
http://psychologistmimi.com/2014/04/06/from-one-knife-to-another-great-expectations/
http://insearchoflostmuchness.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/great-expectations/
LESS IS MORE – THIS WEEK
http://davidriswanto.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/so-how-many-times-have-you-criticize-someone-today/
http://anupturnedsoul.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/what-happens-when-a-protected-species-lives-in-your-garden/
http://lifeofafallenangel.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/disappointments-or-the-realities-of-marriage/
I Should Probably Lower My Expectations…
http://samanthaengchan.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expectations-breed-disappointment/
http://sharingmidlifecrisis.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/lowered-expectations-an-excellent-exception-to-expecting/
http://chey4412.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/not-so-great-expectations-challenge/
http://exploringalura.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/universal-expectations/
http://imagineimmortality.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/already-home/
http://onepinkrose.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/great-expectations/
http://fieldofthorns.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/the-morgue/
http://risingrave28.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expectations-short/
http://maryjmelange.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/the-expectation-play/
http://christineespeer.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/a-love-story/
http://louisebleger.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/unexpected-hiccups/
http://herheartshapedbox.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/pt-5-vulnerable-and-the-unsure-actor/
http://earnestlyextraneous.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/great-expectations/
http://conradlucy.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/me-myself-and-i/
http://hellofromsandy.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/great-expectations/
http://lingeringvisions.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/weekly-writing-challenge-home-run-expectations/
http://wanderingearthlost.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/dp-writing-challenge-great-expectations-a-pillow-to-rest-my-weary-head/
http://thequestioningbeing.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/how/
http://jdhager.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/overcoming-expectations-my-letter-from-grandma/
http://theshadytree.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/expectations-weight/
http://apoemandadrawingaday.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/when-you-were-gone/
http://cassiebeers.wordpress.com/2014/04/22/expect-what-managing-the-expectation-gap/
http://tonkadella.wordpress.com/2014/04/16/marriage-love/
The Tooth Fairy Gives Cash Bonuses For Pain & Bad Decisions
http://travelmorgantravel.com/2014/04/22/the-expectation-and-reality-of-living-abroad/
http://cornedbeefhashtag.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/expectations-of-the-day/
http://haventales.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/weekly-writing-challenge-great-expectations-the-deeper-need/
afterwords: Sex and the Wheelchair
Carolina Dreaming
http://pocketsizedmusings.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/summer-expectations/
http://asnappshot.wordpress.com/2014/04/23/weekly-writing-challengegreat-expectations/
http://bonuminlibero.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations/
http://misadventuresofafroginger.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations-weekly-challenge/
http://rockandrollsupermom.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/the-blind-date-from-hell/
http://mindfuldigressions.com/2014/04/24/not-such-great-expectations/
http://artfullyaspiring.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/how-i-met-your-father/
http://triumphantwings.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/happiness-health-well-being/
http://mermaidtresses.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/anzac-day-sweet-crunchy-biscuits/
http://mahitravel.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations/
http://heartkindling.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations-but-whose-are-they/
http://whatifitried.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations/
http://northgermanyblog.wordpress.com/2014/04/24/great-expectations/
http://theempathyqueen.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/great-expectations-the-skeptical-consumer-vs-the-customer-service-rep-stupid-people-tricks/
http://prairielotus.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/great-expectations-or-not/
appearances
http://somesadtales.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/all-that-she-hoped-for/
http://playamart.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/awakenings-on-the-river/
http://theempathyqueen.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/great-expectations-a-giant-strand-of-lustrous-creamy-perfect-pearls/
Beautiful Expectations
http://thelifemeblog.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/let-me-fly/
http://mk17design.wordpress.com/2014/04/26/writing-challenge-great-expectations/
Making friends with failure
http://avatarofmrbean.wordpress.com/2014/04/26/on-neighbourly-expectations-and-a-fishing-expedition/
http://dancewithmadness.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/unmet-expectations/
http://awordadventure.wordpress.com/2014/04/26/great-expectations-the-devils-bride/
http://learningneverstops.wordpress.com/2014/04/26/great-expectations-creating-my-day-in-advance/
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