I should be angry. Disappointed. Maybe even depressed somewhat.
I honestly expected myself to be. For what I got. I got less than what I got the last term. But I’m not.
I’m surprised at this too!
In fact I feel relaxed and tranquil. A month long trepidation and suspense is over. I finally now have my grades.
And as I sit in train, writing this post with a huge grin on my face I can see fellow commuters looking at me as if I have gone mad.
I’m happy. I don’t feel even a speck of disappointment. And it gets better.
My friends got such nice grades!
The friend who I study with, who put in so much efforts into this exams, has got so good. She stands just beside me on the scores. Another friend who I have always competed in grades has the same grades as I do. She just told me a couple of days ago she wanted such grades. She got it. My best friend scored more than me! Such meteoric progress! That bastard!!
In fact, all of the class got better. All of them deserve a full hearted cordial congrats!
I was always the competitive type. I always said, I’ll get more marks next time. Never liked being outstripped. Always a race.
Today isn’t one of those days. Today I find myself so happy for their feats. They did it. They deserved it. I’m not gonna go the next day and say to them ‘I’ll get more the next exam!’. In fact I won’t mind the next time they get more.
Never thought I’ll be so glad to see others achieve more.
It felt so good to achieve something last term!. It feels a thousand times better when all those who I call friends achieve what they want and more.
Maybe I’m learning what friendship is finally.
Congrats to all my classmates who are reading this!
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