A couple of months ago, I was debating in my university team on minimum wage. The opposite side debated that minimum wage should stay as it helps establish identity. I remember the moment clearly when the opposite side argued ‘a person’s identity is associated with what they do for a living’. I rebutted against their point saying that a person’s more than just their profession.
Now, I think they were right.
I was a student for a year. I worked as a content writer for six months before that and was a student back in undergraduate school. I worried as to my whereabouts and identity but never like these days. Now, I am not a student and neither am a employee.
I am a job seeker currently and job search is so damn hard!
I can read books, cook and watch TV shows as much as I want but at the end of the day they make me feel like shit. I can’t lie about that, I do feel disgusted on a day when I have literally done nothing. Such days are iterate frequently.
I have to coerce myself to do something each and every day. My motivation is limited and I am running out of it. Ted Talks, reading blogs and stories sometimes gets me off my ass but then something throws me back to my comfort zone of blissful ignorance.
I have made plans to get things done everyday: apply for X number of jobs, call up Y number of companies and so on. I write stuff down as a list for the next day and in the beginning I could do them all but now I can hardly cross half of them out.
The very fact that I have to push myself to do that disgusts me. The lack of a monetary incentive or a professional identity and responsibility makes it harder.
Is it the same for everybody?
Oh, it is not easy, is it? So many people go through what you’re going through, fresh out of university. And I think it takes a very strong soul (read: generally one with decades of life experience) to be able to self-identify outside of a profession. It will come. I have faith that it will come for you.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you Kay. I need to find a profession first though.
PS: Is it weird that I kinda counted on your comment?
LikeLiked by 1 person
Not weird at all:). Intuitive! That is what is going to lead you to that first job.
LikeLiked by 1 person