Numbness


( Pains and Gains

Do you agree with Jane Fonda’s favorite exercise motto, “no pain, no gain?” Is it impossible to attain greatness without considerable hardship?)

I haven’t written in a ten days. Neither fiction nor reality.

I hardly checked other people’s blogs either. I have no clue about what’s happening in their lives either.

I could lie about having a hectic schedule, or about being tired all the time (I am!) But that isn’t the reason.

It’s because I feel numb. Completely and utterly numb. Lifeless and senseless.

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I should be tensed, I have my Ielts this Saturday. But I don’t feel tensed.

My college’s placements (Job Interviews) start this week. I should feel anticipation. I don’t.

I should feel anger at my friends for not inviting me for festivals. I don’t. I don’t feel morose either.

I should feel something. I don’t. I’m filled with apathy and it sickens me. I am human. How could I feel nothing!!!

I read news. Ukraine. Gaza. Israel. Russia. Islamic state. Ebola. Rape. Murder. Scams. Scandals. Etc. Etc.

That’s what they are to me now. Not some other human agony. Just some blah, some etc. And it is sickening for me.

I don’t even feel anything when things turn sour at home. I should feel anger, concern. Nothing!

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It is like I have exhausted myself. The sudden bereavement of my emotions is like I have lost some intrinsic quality. I feel as if I have been supplanted by a clone.

And without these little tiny prompts that are born within, I couldn’t write. My posts are all driven by them. I stalled thinking I’ll find something to write about. I didn’t.

And that was the last straw. I decided I’ll come back to writing. With the number of people in life with whom I could talk to less than my fingers I needed an outlet. I don’t want to end up as a caustic fellow, full of hostility and lack of concern. Or I don’t want to end up a taciturn either. It took a whole lot of courage and will to reach this place, I’m not going back.

I read other people’s blogs. And that isn’t easy when you have about a hundred or so posts backlog. I did my best to read as many as I could. I either starred them or commented on them. I read and read. With each post my comments became more and more thoughtful. With each comment I retrieved the urge to write again.

I don’t know how much power this post is going to have. I have no idea about how you, as a reader will see me after this post. I just want to get back into writing.

I recently tried getting into the Internship Story Contest by Internshala.com.  Don’t know how that will turn out.

I want to write more. I want to participate in more contests, grab as many chances I can to be able to be empathic again.

I’ll take pain. But I want this gain back.

Let’s see what others have written:
http://yougottawrite.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/its-all-in-our-heads/
http://randomactsofsnark.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/pains-and-gains/
http://vmtranblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/daily-prompt-pains-and-gains/
http://jesstyt.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/no-pain-no-gain/
http://awlscribe.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/pains-and-gains/
http://myauthoritis.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pain-free/
http://sayadpoet.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/pains-and-gains-daily-prompt/
http://flashinthepanwritings.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-gain/
http://neverfinished.net/2014/08/30/slump-busting-at-the-halfway-point/
http://helenmeikle.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/daily-prompt-depends-how-you-look-at-it/
http://katherinewebber.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://wileyschmidt.com/2014/08/30/belong-to-your-dreams/
http://flowersandbreezes.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/the-voyagers/
http://eastelmhurstagogo.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/have-to-and-get-to/
http://shyspark.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/hardship-versus-hard-work/
http://alotfromlydia.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/on-childbirth/
http://endeavoury.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://lewellynhughes.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://kansamuse.me/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-gain-that-is-the-question/
http://adjustingyourfocus.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/making-room-for-courage/
http://rodgersthat.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-no-pain-no-gain/
http://insach21site.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/flying-without-falling/
http://willowscottling.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/actually-no/
http://tidlidim.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-pains-and-gains/
http://emo1956.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/define-greatness/
i don’t need your rocking chair: daily post
http://mcswhispers.wordpress.com/2013/04/02/on-the-tip-of-a-pointe/
http://myviewonlifeafter65.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/painless-greatness-wp-daily-prompt/
http://designersophisticate.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/that-which-doesnt-kill-you-makes-you-stronger/
PAIN AND GAIN? NO SUBSTITUTE FOR USING YOUR BRAIN
http://dossiersofsbk.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-gains-greatness/
http://tornin2.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/there-has-to-be-pain-to-achieve-greatness/
No gains without pains
http://thedailyblabber.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/reach-our-dreams/
http://januarysdream.com/2014/08/30/wrestling-jacob/
http://agileopedia.com/2014/08/30/no-gains-without-pains/
dialogue
http://joantatley.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-more-gain/
http://angelamccauley.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/i-agree-with-the-statement-no-pain-no-gain/
http://cockatooscreeching.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/does-pain-really-equal-gain/
http://geekergosum.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://terry1954.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains-the-daily-post/
http://pippakinclawz.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/walk-it/
http://tnkerr.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-pains-and-gains/
http://csaravg.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-gain/
http://preciousjalisa.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/thorn-removed-a-journal-entry/
http://lindaswritingblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/double-double-toil-and-trouble/
http://joatmon14.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-change/
Daily Prompt: Pains and Gains – I have plenty of pains, where are the gains?
http://corinthialynne.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompts-pains-and-gains/
http://marthakennedy.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/you-can-see-the-summit-but/
http://runtrading.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains-in-trading/
http://amaltaas.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-pains-and-gains/
gr8 formuLa
http://thewriteweb.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/my-pain-is-my-gain-therefore-i-live/
http://fibercompulsion.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains-no-not-jane-fonda/
http://jaynesdailypost.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://flippyzipflop.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pain-is-my-teacher/
http://cxianliu.wordpress.com/2014/04/14/realization/
http://milambc.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/bleed-to-succeed/
Pains and Gains: Fly light
http://seikaiha.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-only-pain/
http://valprehension.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/brief-thought-applying-no-pain-no-gain-to-blogging/
http://hobilari.com/2014/08/30/how-to-grow-my-audience-its-a-pains-and-gains/
A Satisficer I am not: No pain, No Gain indeed
http://laughagain.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/experience-makes-you-stronger/
http://helenccsmith.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-post-pains-and-gains/

No Pain, No Gain


http://quotosphere.wordpress.com/2014/08/26/37/
http://shesrambling.com/2014/08/30/pain-is-not-always-physical/
http://agirllikemee.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/really/
http://badosto.wordpress.com/2009/04/05/pain-and-balance/
http://sugarcoatingsince91.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-gain/
http://kevinsunny.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/try-try-again/
http://davidfetzer6271951.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pains-and-gains/
http://dancingtotherain.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/no-pain-no-gain/
http://vexingpoint.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/daily-prompt-pains-and-gains/
http://itsmatthewburgos.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/sliced-skin-daily-prompt/
http://tuckedintoacorner.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/pain-and-gain/
http://tombalistreri.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/with-gain-comes-pain/
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/where-to/
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/looking-for-you/
http://grieflessons.wordpress.com/2014/08/30/skyping-long-after-midnight-and-4-margaritas/

7 Seals – a personal Matter


http://caliten.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/pain-and-gain/
http://glowingcoatofawareness.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/challenges-yield-personal-power/
http://sweetykannoth.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/no-pain-no-gain/

Thanks For Reading
Itsmayurremember

You Did it!!


I should be angry. Disappointed. Maybe even depressed somewhat.

I honestly expected myself to be. For what I got. I got less than what I got the last term. But I’m not.

I’m surprised at this too!

In fact I feel relaxed and tranquil. A month long trepidation and suspense is over. I finally now have my grades.

And as I sit in train, writing this post with a huge grin on my face I can see fellow commuters looking at me as if I have gone mad.

I’m happy. I don’t feel even a speck of disappointment. And it gets better.

My friends got such nice grades!

The friend who I study with, who put in so much efforts into this exams, has got so good. She stands just beside me on the scores. Another friend who I have always competed in grades has the same grades as I do. She just told me a couple of days ago she wanted such grades. She got it. My best friend scored more than me! Such meteoric progress! That bastard!!

In fact, all of the class got better. All of them deserve a full hearted cordial congrats!

I was always the competitive type. I always said, I’ll get more marks next time. Never liked being outstripped. Always a race.

Today isn’t one of those days. Today I find myself so happy for their feats. They did it. They deserved it. I’m not gonna go the next day and say to them ‘I’ll get more the next exam!’. In fact I won’t mind the next time they get more.

Never thought I’ll be so glad to see others achieve more.

It felt so good to achieve something last term!. It feels a thousand times better when all those who I call friends achieve what they want and more.

Maybe I’m learning what friendship is finally.

Congrats to all my classmates who are reading this!

Thanks For Reading
Itsmayurremember

Wrinkles


(New Wrinkles

You wake up one day and realize you’re ten years older than you were the previous night. Beyond the initial shock, how does this development change your life plans?)

Ten years a night;

A week’s lifetime.

Midnight stroll,

Weather’s cold.

Would hardly sleep,

To feel time slip.

There would be no Too much Time,

Seconds worth more than thousand dimes.

Nothing left for the morrow,

No time for sorrow,

No time for regrets.

Feel the death rushing at the weekend,

And not able to stop time’s gallop towards our end.

Will we still worry?

Live our life in a hurry?

Let’s see what others have written:
http://wporterxblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/342/
http://tombalistreri.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/another-day/
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/if-ever/
http://vexingpoint.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/daily-prompt-new-wrinkles-i-see-an-opportunity/
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/depth/
http://guthonestfaith.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/bizarro-world/
http://tuckedintoacorner.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/zipping-into-the-future/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/where-the-heart-truly-is/
http://shiradventurist.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/struggle-wrinkles/
http://underthemonkeytree.com/2014/08/11/ten-years-big-deal/
http://zainabjavid.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/let-time-stand-still/
http://onemanversustheworld.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/it-will-be-what-it-will-be/
http://whatwouldkirstieallsopdo.wordpress.com/2014/01/09/the-student/
Fly like an eagle: Soar and land with grace
http://davidfetzer6271951.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://hopethehappyhugger.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/balance-the-odds/
http://ambitiousdrifter.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/but-no-wiser/
http://dailymusing57.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://mjamesjackson.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/what-are-plans/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2013/04/08/what-we-have-yet-to-learn/
http://epentesi.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/thirty-five/
http://tnkerr.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/daily-prompt-new-wrinkles/
http://flippyzipflop.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/still-younger-than-my-boyfriend/
http://pippakinclawz.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/daily-post-new-wrinkles
http://tyrocharm.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/to-whom-it-may-concern/
http://charronschatter.com/2014/08/11/10-years-have-got-behind-u/
New Wrinkles: Daily Shock
http://agirllikemee.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/that-scary-day/
http://stuffmydogtaughtme.com/2014/08/11/helen-mirren-wrinkle/
http://moosha23.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://fibercompulsion.com/2014/08/11/no-time/
http://risingrave28.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/a-dream-of-old-age/
http://monicleblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/too-old-to-party-too-young-to-die/
http://wriculent.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/just-living-on/
http://turboblaze09.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/no-wrinkles-no-studies/
http://lindaswritingblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/what-on-earth/
http://terry1954.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://daringtodream92.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles-new-perspective/
http://theflowersofmymind.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/holy-shit-i-need-to-do-stuff/
http://thoughtsofawanderlustmermaid.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/im-freakin-33/
http://seikaiha.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/1127/
http://grieflessons.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/wrinkle/
WELCOME BACK, RIP VAN WRINKLE
http://kartikkotian.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/growing-old/
http://thedespicablehuntress.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-daily-post-new-wrinkles/
http://shiradventurist.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/jungle/
http://thedespicablehuntress.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-daily-post-new-wrinkles/
http://onmyfrontporch.com/2014/08/11/7731/
http://joantatley.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-wish-to-spit-at-the-mirror/

Sharpen one another


http://badosto.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/daily-prompt-new-wrinkles/
http://jaynesdailypost.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://yzhengblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-shock-in-10-years/
http://siapositive.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-new-rising-2024/
http://lifeisgreat0.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/so-sad-2/
http://meaningunfolding.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles-ouch/
http://flowersandbreezes.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/dont-want-a-change/
http://alotfromlydia.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/ten-years-from-today/
Praise
http://seriouslyjustsayingdotcom.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles-and-prunes/
http://gjrblogger04.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/dp-new-wrinkles-an-odyssey/
http://writingpromptsforrookiewriters.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/the-daily-posts-daily-prompt-new-wrinkles/
http://turquoisenoises.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/old/
http://soulnspiritblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/an-open-letter-to-a-wrinkle/
http://nitinnair.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/ten-years-what-the-hell/
http://marthakennedy.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/heaven/
http://ivymosquito.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/this-is-my-answer/
http://mydailyminefield.com/2014/08/11/i-want-it-back-now/
http://katefrazerwrites.com/2014/08/11/daily-prompt-new-wrinkles/
http://jessiebardell.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles-and-a-young-life/
http://insach21site.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/new-wrinkles/
http://forgottencorrespondence.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/chaotic-renaissance-the-14th-of-july-2001-orange-city-iowa/
http://barefootnpregnant.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/1522/
http://wanderingideasoflife.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/what-a-difference-a-day-can-make/
Ten Years in One Night
http://catscoffeelifeatrandom.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/day-2-plus-daily-prompt/
http://robertjepson.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/transmutation-flash-sci-fi/
http://mariesmemoirs14.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/life-is-a-vapor/
http://joatmon14.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/it-happened-to-me/
http://adayinthelifeofana.com/2014/08/12/a-few-more-wrinkles/
http://scrapydo.wordpress.com/2014/08/12/new-wrinkles-the-daily-post/

Artistic Vision Pgh Focuses on Eye Health of Local Artists


http://thegadabouttown.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/daily-prompt-king-for-a-day/
http://suejutakeshi.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/sweet-dreams-or-a-beautiful-nightmare/
http://eastelmhurstagogo.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/when-im-sixty-four/
http://mindfuldigressions.com/2014/08/11/i-aint-dead-yet/
http://grieflessons.wordpress.com/2014/08/11/dear-robin-williams/

Thanks For Reading
Itsmayurremember

The Other Species


( Not Lemonade

When life gives you lemons… make something else. Tell us about a time you used an object or resolved a tricky situation in an unorthodox way.)

(Not a tricky situation, but I found some relation to the post I was writing so I submitted anyway)

Women.

I’m not going to say that I am some expert, in fact it is the complete opposite of it.

If I talk about the different women in my life, I’ll probably never finish this post. Not because I know so many, it is because they are so complex that I won’t be able to pen down one point. So I’ll probably stick this posts to the main and vital ones.

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First and obviously, my mom. And yes, after living with her for twenty years I still can’t foresee when she will break down and cry rivers. Sometimes I could get it, but most of the times it is ‘let’s see how it goes’. And what’s worse is when she says ‘okay’.

Example, I say I’m going to my friend’s and she says okay. I know I am in trouble. Extent of the trouble I’ll find out later. And all at once.

But she is my Mom and still comparatively easy to understand. I know she cares about me, and most of her actions are still based on that affection. And it is adorable so I never say a word. She is best mom ever!

Now let’s talk about women/girls of my age. It wasn’t always difficult picking up conversation with them when I was tiny.

Then they decided to hit puberty and well grow things.

In summation, my school and junior college went with as limited interaction with girls. Only Hi! And usual assignments.

Cut to present day. I am in a class whose sex ratio is like 3 girls to 1 guy. Seclusion won’t work, and honestly I didn’t want to either. I wanted to talk, get involved because I felt I was missing out.

To paraphrase a friend, I not only speak now, I speak a lot! Somehow the awkwardness around girls, stammering and shyness reduced.

But that doesn’t mean everything’s okay.

I have a teacher who could not give one lecture without passing a jibe at me. Literally she made me a joke in class (no she isn’t ragging me!)

And the girls!

They are so so so so confusing. Seriously. I know they are as confused as I am, and I shouldn’t be so harsh in judging them. But sometimes it is like they are from another species. So frustrating it gets!

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One moment they are all so nice and saccharine, next I feel their animosity towards me that I get an urge to go and hide under some rock. I am seriously afraid that one day one of them will stab me.

Friends for one day, next they say they aren’t talking to me anymore. Random reasons to pick fights. I Didn’t tell her to join me when I ate, ‘Don’t talk to me anymore’. Or the latest, ‘You are gonna forget me anyway’.

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What did I do? I find the most complex maths problems easier. Studies is easier. Talking to bunch of guys is way easier.

And talk between guys is fixed, either sports or end up telling how hot the girl passing by is. No offense girls. Men will be men.

But somehow I managed. Today I don’t stammer whenever I talk to a girl. Their erratic behavior is somehow amiable, in certain girls cute too. And they know something about listening.

A friend who I judged incorrectly in the beginning turned out to be the best friend I could have asked for.

Another girl who I befriended is complete opposite of me. I still don’t get how we end up being friends. Ended up among the leftovers and made a presentation group. Talking to her is so easy. If I could go back two years and help her, I will.

The main reason I am writing this post is that I found out that I can’t say no to girls. Logic goes completely out of the window when they ask for help. And they know just how to ask. Puppy faced, slightly tensed visage.

It isn’t possible. I agreed to stupid thing for which a guy is teasing me to death. Not exactly a stupid thing, just headlong. Should have given it more thought. But she really needed my help and I couldn’t say no. And my help paid off, I got repaid and now no harm done.

Try saying no! I dare you!

This isn’t a big tricky situation like so many others may be facing.  But I wanted to share anyway.

(Girls of my class if you are reading this, just because I can not say no doesn’t mean I am going to say yes. I learned that trick!)

Thanks For Reading
Itsmayurremember

Let’s see what other have written:
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/edifice/
http://abozdar.wordpress.com/2014/08/03/brave/
http://tombalistreri.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/bad-drink/
http://kosheradobo.com/2013/12/15/how-a-dirty-joke-saved-my-green-card/
http://tuckedintoacorner.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/lemonade/
http://vexingpoint.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/daily-prompt-not-lemonade/
http://gabicringus.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/not-lemonade/
http://guthonestfaith.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/yo-mama/
http://shiradventurist.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/just-cry-it-out/
http://livingbreathingbeing.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/when-life-give-you-lemons-no-no-i-wont-make-lemonade/
http://mcswhispers.wordpress.com/2014/04/10/wake-up-and-smell-the-lemons/
http://flippyzipflop.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/1071/
http://kate0murray.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/once-upon-a-time/
http://grieflessons.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/compulsion-to-rhyme-all-the-time/
http://wanderingideasoflife.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/stinkin-thinking/
http://risingrave28.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/the-comeback/
http://jaynesdailypost.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/not-lemonade/
http://laughagain.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/thank-you-steven-soderbergh/
http://mindsoffollowers.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/conflict-management-helps-to-make-lemonade-out-of-lemons/
http://breakingbadness.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/the-daily-prompt-not-lemonade/
http://wriculent.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/not-another-unorthodox-story/
http://msbstories.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/the-blunt-object-of-compassion/
http://loisajay1213.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/daily-prompt-not-lemonade/
http://yzhengblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/getting-lost/
http://joatmon14.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/when-life-gives-you-a-friend/
http://pippakinclawz.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/3291/
READING THE BOOK OF ALL-ANSWERS
http://flowersandbreezes.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/tale-of-a-stepmom/
http://meaningunfolding.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/not-lemonade-acceptance-the-route-to-ease/
http://thereluctantbaptist.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/and-the-babies-lived/
Turning a Meltdown into Songfest 🙂
http://guidetogettinglost.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/how-to-avoid-trouble-while-traveling-abroad/
http://marthakennedy.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/lemons-are-not-always-lemons/
http://lindaswritingblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/curtains-and-clothes/
http://deanbowman.co/2014/08/09/paper-august/
http://perfectpubquiz.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/theres-something-about-terry/
http://ifollowislands.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/guinea-pig-on-the-road-no-lemons/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2013/11/04/wordless-crushed-but-never-broken/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/true-strength-begins-with/
http://stepstimestwo.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/lemonade-with-a-twist/
http://alotfromlydia.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/support-hose-incident-debriefing/
http://alotfromlydia.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/support-hose-incident-debriefing/
http://griefhappens.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/sometimes-you-have-to-make-things-happen/
http://fibercompulsion.com/2014/08/09/not-lemonade/
http://siapositive.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/taste-the-lemons/
http://griefhappens.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/talesfromtheteenyears/
http://photofaithchallenge.wordpress.com/2014/07/27/more-than-i-deserve/
http://fieldofthorns.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/loss-objectified/
http://greyzr.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/stranded/
http://theshotgungirls.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/the-hungry-calf/
http://eastelmhurstagogo.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/finding-the-hidden-good-in-lemons/
http://withafrenchmaidfetishwhilstmusing.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/have-kitchen-will-travel/
http://thisonpurpose.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/a-lemon-of-a-class/
http://thegadabouttown.wordpress.com/2014/08/09/daily-prompt-born-at-the-right-time/
http://thisonpurpose.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/a-lemon-of-a-class/
http://wileyschmidt.com/2014/08/09/an-open-letter-to-the-haters/
Not Lemonade: Have some!
http://sienawritesthings.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/not-lemonade/
http://no1muzzy.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/brown-chook-v-black-puppy-2/

Take What You Get..


In the recent years, there have been hospital visits for my family.

My dad had an kidney stone operation some two years back. My mom had to remove her appendix a year ago. My big brother too was in the hospital for a week because of a chest infection.

Now too my dad is undergoing a dental procedure. My mom is showing early signs of arthritis. My brother is well, he is the same idiot he was.

So whenever they undergo some procedure, they call me.

They have to get an X ray done, they ask me why should they. Or what may be the alternative to a certain procedure. And I tell them in elucidate details.

I know I have ranted and whined about there may be no good employment for me in the coming future. I don’t know where my life is going. I don’t know if I could pursue further studies or not. I can’t possibly predict what is going to happen.

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It isn't easy

And to start thinking about, fretting about what may happen and what may go dire; it is gruelling. There is prophetic way.

Not to mention, my nerves are all jarred and the anxiety is too much to bear. My results are yet to be revealed, while most of my friends who study in different branches have already received their scores. The trepidation is killing me.

I have my impending exams to study for, I worry more than once in a day about how am I going to survive in the world when I find myself struggling in college. Other than this blog, even communication with my best friends is difficult for me. No clue about what to do after college, no clue what to do in college!

If you think I am forlorn about this, then no, I am not. I am actually laughing to have a written the same list of worries here from my brain. And for the first time, these concerns no longer concern me.

Back to the scene at my home then.

With the way my parents ask me about all medical technicalities these days. More often than not, I find myself describing in length the different mechanisms and working of these procedures or the way their body works. I do have the knowledge, though I am no doctor but I do more learned here than my family.

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And they never understand a word that I utter. No matter in how simple I make it sound. They never do! And yet each time I find them agape.

They can’t understand it, I know. They have done their degrees in commerce while I am yet the only (imminent) technical degree holder in the house. I can’t understand either when they start talking about accounts and taxes.

But I absolutely cherish those moments. To amaze my family with my ken. To find the same pride in their faces that was lost somewhere when I grew up.

The concerns in my life aren’t going away. I may still end up in some underprivileged employment where I cannot tap my caliber. Or in some foreign university where the scene may be worse than what I face here. Or something else may go wrong.

But today I find myself proud and immune to those concerns. I am happy with what I am accomplishing at home. The small happiness and pride in what I do. In what I love.

And maybe that’s what I should seek.
Why look for the monumental felicity when you find yourself facing ephemeral joy.

You take what you can get right?

(Sometimes I find my dog too staring at me in awe!)

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Tranquility


Today was pretty much normal. Aside from the fact that we had to present our engineering projects to the professors, yeah it was normal.

The project was approved, officially. And then we went to lunch. And lunch isn’t the commonplace restaurant like McDonald or KFC. We went to a shabby dhabba kind of place.

For its Misal Pav.

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Misal Pav

I used to eat there when I used to practice my street play in college. I knew, a few of my friends knew it. All heard about it from me, of course. The food there was long overdue. I loved eating there, so did a few.

It was kind of fun to enter a small stall and ask seats for ten people. They had to array their customers around to make space for all of us.

We ate.

We laughed.

One got scared of a small cute black kitten.

We laughed again.

And again.

It is a memorable day in itself for me. Possibly the best I have had in a week or so. No worries, just favourite food and congenial company.

But the day got better for me after it.

I am not a atheist. I am not a believer either. I don’t know what I believe in, but it may have its roots in fatalism.

Temples are not for me. All the carillon ringing is never amiable. But I always adored Sikh temples or Gurudwalas.

Ever been to one? No? Then I highly recommend you to go there. It is like unparalleled.

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Sikh Temple

Doesn’t matter when I go, with whom I go, it is the place that imbues peace to me. The Tranquility there is always surreal.

I could never shut my mind. There is always something that my brain keeps processing (Engineers will laugh at this!) A moment of quiet for me? Absurd.

Today I got it. The ten minutes there, I just looked. My mind didn’t even dare whisper a thought. For once, I was at the place where I stood. My mind didn’t take a trip down the memory lane.

And I relish those ten minutes profoundly.

I could hear my own heartbeat. Listen to the ceiling fan spin, cutting the air.

Whenever I visit Sikh temples, I never know what to do. But my subconscious does. Most of the time it is like I have lost control of my limbs, and my subconscious drives me. The number of times I prostrate myself, how much time should I bow my head. It is never a decision, it is autonomous.

So definitely I enjoyed the lunch. But the temple’s quietude I will not let go.

As I write this post, there is a peace in me that I never feel, and now I am basked in it

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Who Made You?


(Handmade Tales

Automation has made it possible to produce so many objects — from bread to shoes — without the intervention of human hands (assuming that pressing a button doesn’t count). What things do you still prefer in their traditional, handmade version?)

Fiction:

The huge metal exoskeleton looked at him. His red LED eyes could be surmised at being bloodshot. And his gargantuan arms had lifted a SUV off the ground. The internal mechanisms of the automation seemed to sound more and more like ragged breaths. Andrew gulped.

And as suddenly as that the automation went inanimate. The SUV still lifted off the ground by at least ten feet, the automation turned off. Andrew was confused. The automation shouldn’t be turned off now, not when another needs to go below the SUV and repair it.

“Heinous things aren’t these” Shawn called from behind him.

Andrew turned and greeted his childhood friend, who as of now was his boss too. But who cares, meeting him was always a good feeling.

Shawn continued “If they spend thousands of dollars making these machines can’t they look a little less horrible. I mean look at it, all the cables popping out of his limbs, cables all over him. If you have a figment of my imagination, that looks like a crabbed old man. Um wait, it also looks like your granddad Andrew.”

They both laughed at the similarities between the machine and the loving granddad. Shawn was always like that, he could smell if anyone had any difficulty and would always come to  aid. They both talked for a while and then continued to move towards the cafeteria.

The entire factory was deserted. Most of the workers were on strike, opposite the factory. Strike was simple, stop using machines, it increases their chances of getting a pink slip. A couple of the other issues, unions and certain interested parties also had their motives in the strike. But the main concern was this. Workers are being replaced by machines.

“Say Shawn” Andrew began “How long do you think the strike is gonna go on for?”

“Can’t say. They always go to strike these days. Every issue it seems is solved by strikes. But I don’t think they should be concerned with they getting replaced by machines.”

“Um, we are replacing them aren’t we? That’s what those machines are for?”

“Yeah but they,are forgetting something. Who is gonna make those machines? We are. That’s right, the authorities are so darn impressed by these bots that they are considering building a separate factory just to make that. And then sell the machines of course.”

Andrew couldn’t help but think about Terminator. His face must have shown it because Shawn continued, “You see the bosses are not very keen on mass termination of employees”

Andrew looked sharply at Shawn who snickered a laugh and continued “You aren’t looking at the bigger picture here. The more bigger the neighboring new factory is gonna be, the more employees they are gonna handle. We have employees who are loyal just there, doing nothing. They are great in mechanics and auto machinery. Perfect for new factory.”

Shawn has a point. “After all these machines aren’t here to steal people’s jobs, they are here so that people couldn’t work more. Simple jobs that require the employees only to press buttons.”

“You must have forgotten something. Even if we are turning this town into machines, who makes these machines? Well we do. And as long as the machines are there, there are jobs!”

Andrew was convinced that Shawn was right. More machines, more jobs. After all these autos were nothing but man made creations aren’t they?

(Since I am an engineer, I couldn’t write bad about these automatons. So I just wrote that these machines too are man made!)

Let’s see what others have written:
http://sugarcoatingsince91.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/bread/
http://guthonestfaith.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-brave-little-tailor/
http://tombalistreri.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/time-user/
http://pintsof.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales
http://wporterxblog.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/fast-food-is-fantastic/
http://transformsiberia.com/2014/07/30/nosh-some-khuushuur-taste-the-steppe/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-automation/
http://deanbowman.co/2014/07/31/obscurity
http://zainabjavid.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/hand-skills/
http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/2013/12/22/take-a-break-and-see-the-place-we-truly-call-home/
http://onemanversustheworld.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/married-to-a-friend/
http://wanderingideasoflife.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/divertiti/
http://fibercompulsion.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales/
http://risingrave28.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-story-of-bread/
http://yellowelcamino.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-art-of-coffee/
red speck
http://oneseventwentyfourteen.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/committing-technologicide/
http://lindaswritingblog.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/my-favorite-things/
http://agirllikemee.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/just-one-thing/
While on CIPRO longing for a handmade strawberry daiquiri and mojito
http://dumbifyisnotaword.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/not-blog-10-blogging-before-internet/
http://priyankakanagaraj.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/your-hands-are-your-art-2/
ONE-OF-A-KIND
http://charlieray45.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/leave-my-biscuits-alone/
http://mjamesjackson.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/use-your-hands/
http://wordswewomenwrite.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/a-handmade-tale-the-myths-say-that-the-raven-brought-fire-to-the-people-by-stealing-it-from-the-sun-im-similarly-enlightened-by-the-ravens-and-childre
http://artmoscow.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/naming-the-dog-on-my-plate/
http://seikaiha.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales-a-confession/

Monochrome Monday: Craft Fair


http://jahnavichintakunta.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-oh-soooo-sweeeeet/
http://yzhengblog.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/thick-and-thin-plates/
http://jaynesdailypost.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales/
http://wherevertheheartgoes.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/a-tribute-to-the-good-old-fashioned-maths/
http://senorpez.com/fresh-ground/
http://keyboardpizza.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/home-cooked-history/
http://marthakennedy.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/romance-novel/
http://mywitchkitchen.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/chocolate-my-guilty-pleasure/
http://mariesmemoirs14.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-pulls-on-the-heartstrings/
http://grieflessons.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/luddite-within-reason/
Daily Prompt: Handmade Tales – I am Mrs. Do-It-Yourself in person
http://suburbanunwife.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-bread/
http://pippakinclawz.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/3228/
http://psibrone.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/of-snickerdoodles-and-lemon-meringue-pies/
http://livelifeincrescendo.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/homemade-canning/
Rise of the Machines: 3D-Printed Pizza Vs. Handmade Pizza
http://moreactionresearch.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/acting-handmade/
http://themasculinepen.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-post-that-one-handmade-thing/
http://cognitivereflection.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales/

http://theshotgungirls.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/considerately-made-presents-and-pies/
http://joantatley.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/why-do-we-give-in/
http://pollyannapress.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/my-kind-of-bling/
http://kansamuse.me/2014/07/31/hand-made-treasures/
http://agonyandecstacy.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/reading-the-old-fashioned-way/
http://flowersandbreezes.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales/
http://joatmon14.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-only-way-to-read/
http://basicallybeyondbasic.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales/
The lost art of penmanship (writing prompt)
http://stepstimestwo.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales-homemade-mozzarella/
http://musingsofawarmheart.wordpress.com/2014/06/28/amigurumi-2/
http://knsalustro.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/maybe-im-biased-on-this-one-maybe/
http://ava1martini.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-show-cover-ukulele-and-guitarlele-version/
http://randommstuffblah.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade/
http://briething.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/good-old-fashioned-words/
http://typosandterseness.com/2014/07/31/a-handmade-pregnancy/
http://allthingscuteandbeautiful.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-being-handmade/
http://fisundigniuwe.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/what-things-do-you-still-prefer-in-their-traditional-handmade-version/
http://bobbeck1600.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales/
http://thisonpurpose.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-fine-art-of-making-tasty-treats-and-edible-edibles/
http://wriculent.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/non-modern-art/
http://rustyiam.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handy/
http://beatofmydrumx.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/how-can-you-beat-handmade/
http://flippyzipflop.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/986/
http://mindfuldigressions.com/2014/07/31/homemade-or-made-from-scratch/
http://insach21site.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales/
http://goodgollymissmollie94.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales-from-the-mouth/
http://alotfromlydia.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/lets-go-back/
http://musingsofawarmheart.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/my-world-of-play-amigurumi/
http://shardsofsilence.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/lobster-love-blogniversary/
http://badosto.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales/
http://meaningunfolding.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales-kintsugi-and-other-things/
http://meaningunfolding.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales-kintsugi-and-other-things/
http://emotionalfitnesstraining.com/2014/07/31/laugh-play-pray-make-something/
http://silverthreading.com/2014/07/31/prussian-crochet/
http://eastelmhurstagogo.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/frankenstein-opens-pandoras-box/
http://windywonderings.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/the-sock-story/
http://acmelodyblog.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/why-i-dont-eat-ice-cream/
http://meowscripture.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/black-magic-vinyl/
http://stuffmydogtaughtme.com/2014/07/31/friendship/
http://myjourneytofindmyself.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/books-vs-the-kindle/
http://epentesi.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/racconti-fatti-a-mano/
http://thisblogneedsatitle.com/2014/07/31/daily-peompt-reading-a-book/
Handmade Gifts of Love
http://stuffenonsense.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/left-foot-right-foot/
http://sienawritesthings.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/handmade-tales/
http://theultimatefundraiser.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/handmade-tales-handcrafted-furniture/
http://purplepeninportland.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/dial-me-a-phone/
http://testmecards.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/learn-science-by-handmade-experiments/
http://legendsoflorata.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/handmade-tales/
http://jaysnaps.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/at-the-show/
http://20somethingrealism.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/daily-prompt-handmade-tales/
http://99problemsanddone.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/made-with-love/
http://fieldofthorns.wordpress.com/2014/07/31/dreams-twilight-a-nyquil-sight/
http://lifeassirli.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/do-it-youself/
http://soulfoood.me/2014/08/01/the-mummification-is-now-complete-love-letters-to-my-son/
http://funnierrevolt.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/handled-letters/
http://writingpromptsforrookiewriters.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/the-daily-posts-prompt-from-yesterday-handmade-tales/
http://laughagain.wordpress.com/2014/08/01/stainless-steel-chef/

Thanks For Reading
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