( Back of the Queue
Is there something you’ve always wanted to do, but never got around to starting (an activity, a hobby, or anything else, really)? Tell us about it — and tell us about what’s keeping you from doing it.)
I try. I so try!
When I do something, something I really want to do, something I am really looking forward to, I dive in.
No time for second thoughts, no time for studying the situation. Just dive in headlong. Pure impulse. And I never leave anything behind. I give it my best.
That is something I never got around to change. I don’t know how I’ll do it either. This is me! Impulsive.
Let it anything I end up doing.
And then when I give it so much I expect too much. I am not realistic about it. Not every exam is giving me good grades. Not every friend will always like my habits. Not every time my parents will be happy with what I do.
And not every post will receive great views and likes.( And to think I expect to be freshly pressed!)
That is the second thing. Be realistic. I know I should. But I can’t simply detach myself.
And then there is the favourite archenemy. Whispers in the head. Repeating my past mistakes. Saying I am not good enough. Saying I belong at the back of the queue. And me believing it rather than at me.
Third thing. I really should start believing in myself and my abilities.
Fourth and main thing. Every one of the above leaves me drained. I look and think too much about the future. I ponder too much of my past. I still remember a quote from movie Rang De Basanti
“One leg in the future, one leg in the past. That’s why we are peeing on the present”
That’s what I need to do. Stop peeing on the present. But it is so hard!
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